PITY PARTY

These past few days, well if I'm honest weeks, I've been kind of having my own Pity Party. Ya know where you're feeling sorry for yourself, and the things you're going through. Like there is no one in the world who feels like the weight of the world in on their shoulders, just you.

Yep that was me. Not only have I been dealing with migraine headaches which are the worst! But add dizziness, a injured knee with a torn minuscus (a ligament in the knee), and to top it off, gossip.
Mix that all together with some rainy weather, and a funky attitude, and you've got yourself a nice little Pity Party going on right there!
The past few days it was a lot worse. I can tell when I'm not right in my heart, because I'm not nice, i'm quick to get angry, and I get offended easy. Honestly family, I wasn't right in my heart. I was hurt and really didn't understand what or why I was so upset. Or how to even handle it.

Tonight I got to hear a friend preach at H2O, and awesome place where Middle and High School students can learn to worship and praise God in a way crafted for them! She was saying how someone had offended her and at one point that pretty much took over her prayer time, and it's what she thought about a lot. Time that could be spent with the Lord, was somewhat spent on trying to overcome this offended feeling she had.

I thought to myself, let me think back to how I've handle this situation. I've been so busy feeling sorry for myself,  having a little pity party, but have I REALLY gotten into God's word like I should? I've let all these things consume most of my time.? Have my prayers been about ME and MY problems. Have I been putting on the Armor of GOD daily as it says to in Ephesians 6:10-22. How can I possibly glorify God when my heart is not right?!

Thankfully, the past two days I've been pretty much forcing myself to get into the Bible and study, (I say forcing because when you're in your pity party, you want nothing more than to sulk, and dwell on whatever issue is bothering you at that moment.) After a while I noticed, my attitude changed, I wasn't so quick to get angry, and I'm taking it easy. As a mother and wife, it's so easy to get caught up in every day life and stress. That kind of thing could break anyone. I say Could because for a while I forgot who I belonged too. I forgot that even when the times get hard, who's in control. I forgot that Jehovah Jireh (My Provider) is and was always there!

Understanding that I cannot do this on my own, and that I needed JESUS to help me, I needed him like air, I can't do it without him, I'm nothing without his counsel.

With him, I can breath, with him, I can move, I am his everything.

Asking for prayer is something I don't do often, Not because I've got it all together; I guess it's because it will show people how vulnerable I am. But I will tell you this, ask for prayer if you need it. Ask your family and church family to intercede and pray with and for you. This is something I've been working on myself.

I pray you all have a good night, and please if you find yourself throwing your own little pity party remember this, Jesus is there. You're never alone. Take a deep breath and get into his word.

God Bless Family