ALIVE AGAIN

I often hear songs in my dreams. They play as if I am listening to them on a radio, sometimes blaring loud, sometimes I just hear the chourus. I always get up and find the song, I hear in my dreams and read the lyrics. I know God has given that song to me for a purpose.

The song I heard today was called, "Alive Again" by Matt Maher.

I immediately thought back to when I first heard this in my dream. Memories flooded back to me. My thoughts went back to when I struggled in my addiction. Not many people knew or know about how much hurt and fear I really had many years back.

Fighting the pain and post traumatic stress of my son being sick, and my daughters being premature, I was so scared of life. Fear and worry pretty much gripped my life. I took to heavy heavy drinking to feel normal and pretty much forget.

The very first night I heard this song in my dream I had gone out and gotten drunk the night before. The lyrics were blaring in my head.

 "I woke up in darkness, surrounded by silence, oh where, where have I gone? I woke to reality losing its grip on my, oh where, where have I gone, cause I can see the light..before I see the sunrise! You called and you shouted rose through my deafness, and now I'm breathing in i'm breathing out, I'm alive, I'm alive again!"

Those words played so loud I woke, tossed and turned trying to sleep, but the Lord was relentless with me. He didn't want me to forget he was there! He wanted me to know he was shouting to me through my deafness.

I read the lyrics to the song, and the Lord had told me exactly what he wanted me to hear from him.

Sometimes a gentle whisper, sometime loud as rumbling thunder, he was speaking to my spirit. I know many would say being so open and sharing this kind of personal information is way to personal. To this I would say, It's not about people knowing my past, it's about how GOD championed his sick, painfully lost, and broken daughter back to health with His, Love, Grace, Kindness, and Mercy, and if someone hears this story and looks to GOD for healing and saving, well it was all worth it in the end.

I've posted a link to this song by Matt Maher with the lyrics. I also posted another song by Tenth Avenue North that I would hear just as loud in my dreams over and over when I was in this stuggle... Perhaps one of these songs with move your spirit just as it did mine.

Alive Again

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