DON’T BE SILENT

Last July is about when I started feeling really anxious with things in my life. I can't really pin point one specific thing that happened to me that made life so very difficult for me. I struggled so badly. I was fearful, worried, sick, tired, anxious, depressed, and angry. I don't know what I was. I just wasn't myself. I don't know how or what happened, but I can assume that I had let the stress and pressures of life push me into a position of full submission. My body was taking a hit because my mental health was not up to par.

“I am a believer in Jesus, how did I let this happen?” I often asked myself.  I didn’t have an answer. All I knew was I was upset with God for putting me through this. I thought I was doing everything right, why would I be feeling this way?

It took me a long time to realize that no matter what I'm going through God always remains the same. I’d much rather struggle with him on my side than without him. Without him, I'd be lost. He was the only real truth that I had in the midst of my depression. He heard my cry, my anger, my fear, my frustration, my love, my pain, and He never left my side.

With the help of deep prayer, changing my eating habits, praying family and friends, and professional help, God has lead me to a path of healing. A path that I could not see when I was stuck deep in my thoughts. I was not all 100% better immediately, but I had gotten so much healthier than I was. For that I am so unbelievably thankful!

I look at life a whole new way now. I never want to take a moment for granted. I never want to let fear and worries rule my life. I never want to control what God has already put in place. That’s his business! 

I am so thankful for the Blood of Jesus the Messiah that has redemptive power! (Eph. 1:7) The same Blood that was shed for me, for us, that moves within us, that sacrificial Healing Blood, that did such a work in my life can do the same for you. God Truly gets all the Glory for all that He has done within me. I cannot take any credit for how He has pulled me up from the thick of it. I am on my knees humbled and grateful for His Divine Mercy.

If you are in a season of uncertainty, I pray that God will show you exactly where to go to find your healing, and that you will speak up. Don't be silent. You are not alone. 

Love Net-