BLOOD
I just realized I haven't blogged since July. That's about when I started feeling really anxious with things in my life. I can't really pin point one specific thing that happened to me that made these last four months so very difficult for me.
I struggled you guys. I struggled so bad. I was fearful, worried, sick, tired, anxious, depressed, angry. I don't know what I was. I just wasn't myself. I don't know how or what happened, but I can assume that I had let the stress of life push me into a position of submission.
I am a believer, how did I let this happen? I don't know. All I know is I was upset with God for putting me through this. I thought I was doing everything right, why would I be feeling this way?
It took me a long time to realize that no matter what I'm going through God always reamains the same. I much rather struggle with him on my side than without him. Because without him, I'd be lost. He was the only real truth I had. He heard my cry, my anger, my frustration, my love, my pain, and He never left my side.
With the help of deep prayer, meditation, changing my eating habits, praying family and friends, professional help, God has lead me to a path of healing. I am not all 100% myself, but I am so much healthier than I was. For that I am so unbelievably thankful!
I look at life a whole new way now. I never want to take a moment for granted. I never want to let fear rule my life. I never want to control what God has already put in place.
I am so thankful for the Blood of Jesus the Messiah which has redemptive power! (Eph. 1:7) The same Blood that was shed for me, that moves within me, that sacrificial Healing Blood, that did such a work in me these last for months. God Truly gets all the Glory for all that He has done within me. I cannot take any credit for how He has pulled me up from the thick of it. I am on my knees humbled and grateful for His Divine Mercy.
I heard this song on the radio a week ago, and I've heard it before, but the lyrics meant more to me than ever before. It spoke about how it wasn't in this person's blood to give up, and give in to whatever feelings or emotions he had. I got very emotional because that song was real for me. I began thinking of the precious Blood of my Lord that is so powerful, He never let me give up or give in!
Thank you for reading my heart family. Your prayers are always welcome. I pray for you tonight, that if you are in a season of uncertainty, that God will show you exactly where to go to find your healing, and that you will speak up. Don't be silent.
Love Net-
I struggled you guys. I struggled so bad. I was fearful, worried, sick, tired, anxious, depressed, angry. I don't know what I was. I just wasn't myself. I don't know how or what happened, but I can assume that I had let the stress of life push me into a position of submission.
I am a believer, how did I let this happen? I don't know. All I know is I was upset with God for putting me through this. I thought I was doing everything right, why would I be feeling this way?
It took me a long time to realize that no matter what I'm going through God always reamains the same. I much rather struggle with him on my side than without him. Because without him, I'd be lost. He was the only real truth I had. He heard my cry, my anger, my frustration, my love, my pain, and He never left my side.
With the help of deep prayer, meditation, changing my eating habits, praying family and friends, professional help, God has lead me to a path of healing. I am not all 100% myself, but I am so much healthier than I was. For that I am so unbelievably thankful!I look at life a whole new way now. I never want to take a moment for granted. I never want to let fear rule my life. I never want to control what God has already put in place.
I am so thankful for the Blood of Jesus the Messiah which has redemptive power! (Eph. 1:7) The same Blood that was shed for me, that moves within me, that sacrificial Healing Blood, that did such a work in me these last for months. God Truly gets all the Glory for all that He has done within me. I cannot take any credit for how He has pulled me up from the thick of it. I am on my knees humbled and grateful for His Divine Mercy.
I heard this song on the radio a week ago, and I've heard it before, but the lyrics meant more to me than ever before. It spoke about how it wasn't in this person's blood to give up, and give in to whatever feelings or emotions he had. I got very emotional because that song was real for me. I began thinking of the precious Blood of my Lord that is so powerful, He never let me give up or give in!
Thank you for reading my heart family. Your prayers are always welcome. I pray for you tonight, that if you are in a season of uncertainty, that God will show you exactly where to go to find your healing, and that you will speak up. Don't be silent.
Love Net-
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